Whydobirds' Journals

DEAR BUZZNET

HEY
Did you realize that fucking SPAMMING ROBOTS are eating this website alive??
And 13 year old girls who "want you now"?
And duuuuuude... I CAN GET FREE TIX IF I "click here!"?

It's happened to you, too, sweet buzznet. Tooooooooo bad. How about we start deleting the accounts that don't have pictures, don't have videos, don't have anything but adzzzzz? I'll help, dammit.

Sincerely,
Nicole.

8 things from Chuch

So i just got tagged by chucharro and it's MY turn to tell you all 8 things 'bout me. RANDOM THINGS. 1) when i was younger i could imagine other people i knew getting older and how they would look, but not myself. i never thought i would grow older, or look different, but others would. 2) i get terribly ill when i eat wheat. well, unimaginable stomach cramps. 3) i thought i would become a pro skate boarder too, when i first learned how to ride. i still don't know if it was the skating i fell in love with, or the person who influenced me the most, but when i lost touch, i stopped riding. 4) when i drive, i sometimes imagine the worst things possible happening - i'm riding down the street and a jogger/kid on a bike/motorcyclist/pedestrian jumps in front of the car and i hit them and i go to prison and my whole life is ruined. driving scares the crap out of me. 5) i get so envious when i see art, i wish i could make it. how do people get chosen to be famous? i think chosen is definitely the operative word, since i've seen some BOGUS art in the MOMA, nyc. i want to study theory. 6) i enjoy spending entire days inside, alone. 7) i am conflicted/torn between being naive and being knowing. i want to read every book and see every great movie, but i also see myself as being a child who has not yet scratched the surface of what the world is about. i was so different then. i wish i was little again sometimes. 8) i plan on kicking some ass within the upcoming year. i will make prints, i will draw more like i used to, i will show my art, think about graduate school, save my money, have a big, hot, steamy attitude where other people won't stop anything. i will make bad art and i will make good theories, and i will make good art with no theory at all. i will think more and write more and record more. i will make music.

Cross Country Road Trippin'

Dear Buzznet!

On August 4th, my bro Steve and I will be going on a road trip. I plan on taking craploads of pictures and trying to find wi-fi along the way to update pics. I'm way excited and I will be showing pictures of places we'll stay, people I meet (if any), sights, etc.

I had this idea that involved panoramas from every city we stop in. Might be awesome, might be dreadfully monogomous to look at.

Here's the route we're taking, roughly.

Tucson, AZ to Marfa, TX to Austin, TX.
From Austin to (hopefully) Baton Rouge, LA to New Orleans, LA.
Theeeen, we'll go through Mississippi and Alabama without stopping and to Florida, probably ending up either in Talahasse or Ft. Meyers where we'll visit our grandparents.
A couple days there, then to Miami to see our friend Juan where he's working for the summer. Then up the East coast to New York where I'll visit a family friend and then fly back from there.

It'll take awhile, but I can't take being in Tucson NO MORE!

Hey you guys... anyone live in the South or East coat?
A visit is in order!
(Hurrah!)

who needs 'em

See heres the thing. i'm deleting phone #s of people i never hear from/talk to/all that baloney. so, my adress book is 1/2 as heavy. heavy technology, kind of funny to think about. anyways, i'm tired of scrolling over people and filling up with what-if's and i-should-call-them's only to be set back by 'but are we on good terms?' and 'he/she hasn't answered any of my calls/messages...'

so fuck those people.

i think it's a nice way of cleaning out one's life.

goodbye to you lame-o's.

I'M GOING CRAZY!!

it's a crazy world!! it's a crazy life!! CRAZINESS EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

this is what i've listened to tonight:

bubba sparxxx - ms. new booty
d4l - laffy taffy
daniel johnston - the late great daniel johnston (album)
nintendo remix - SMB theme
prince - whole bsides album (disc 2)
rolling stones - angie
rilo kiley - it's a hit
smashing pumpkins - everything i've got on the ipod

i think that's a weird assortment. it's been a strange day. but good. happy days to you.

Mirah's "Nobody Has to Stay"

for Max:

rest up in the gentle sway
sister make a flower place
a mother father brother grace
a river of stone to keep her safe

come away with me today
everthing should be okay
fill your pockets while you pray
with some to eat and some to save

nobody has to stay
but we wish they would
anyways

it is the evening of the days
where we have chosen to remain
and while you hurt with all that pain
the stars will kiss your pretty face

come away with me today
everthing should be okay
fill your pockets while you pray
with some to eat and some to save

nobody has to stay
but we wish they would
anyways

you will be ok, friend, as long as you've got people who care about you and love you. my favorite line in all of this: "the stars will kiss your pretty face". there's always something to liven your spirits, even in the darkest of nights, when the stars shine and give you way. for those of you who don't know mirah, go, go now, go now and listen and laugh and love and cry and share and absorb this girl, because she is so wise for someone so young.

Not This by FannyPack

I'm still takin the train and
My metro card's empty
The windows of the stores when I walk by tempt me
I was on MTV but I don't have a Bently
F*** it in my pockets I barely gotta twenty
Dollar bill but I go to shows
And make you holla still
I gotta pay my bills and it's not like Prada will
I go to the check cashing spot
Will I always be a have not
Never gonna live in no lavish spot
Always gonna live at home with mom and pop
Shop at Old Navy and Payless
I'm just tryna be honest that why I say this
Hopefully radio plays this I doubt it though
Yo pass that Olde English

Yeah I be rockin the discotech
Every single night no self respect
Sometimes I feel like I party way too much
Premieres openings and shows and such but
What else is a girl to do
Go home by myself at 2
In the AM I'm sayin I'm not playin
I'm doin the same stupid shit and it's day in day out
I know that there's gotta be a way out
But I keep drinking and I just stay out
At the hot spots with superstars and the hardrocks
I wish that I could disappear to the boondocks
Why not, maybe I'll hire me a pilot
To take me away to the shade and I'll stay
Get a slice at Ray's like we did when we was kids
Something's gotta give real soon but it's not this

On the real I be hatin myself sometimes
I know you do too but it's okay sometimes
I'm tryin to escape the grind sometimes
It ain't gonna get better if I do some lines so
Enough with the parties and bullshit
I go to the parties and bullshit
It never gets better when I do this shit
So stressed I wanna get up and quit
It's like maybe tonight's the night and
Maybe if I socialize I'll feel alright but those
Never seem to be the best laid plans
Never did I dream I'd go to foreign lands I just
Wanna lay in creamy sands
Doing nothin all day with my dreamy man maybe
Buy that house across from the projects
So I can stay trading gossip like stock tips

It's not at the after party
It's not in the hotel lobby
It's not in magazines
And It's not even in my dreams
The things that I need
Ain't in the vip
Dont know what it is
It's definitely not this

Saved

I'm in a funk, I don't know what's wrong. That's about all I have to say.

nic

A-Z Meme

A = age = 19

B = booze = Fancy beer. (tres sophistique! Pff...)

C = career = Student, UA Library "worker"

D = dad's name = Rick

E = essential items to bring to a party = A large fruit of some kind

F = favorite song at the moment = hmm, no favorites right now, but I was totally digging Dinosaur Jr. this morning.

G = goof-off thing to do = knit. oh man, knit. and read. and surf the internets.

H = hometown = San Francisco

I = instrument you play = the hueler and harmonica

J = jam or jelly you like = gotta be natural raspberry. gotta be.

K = kids = eeuuhhhhhh... no... can't even think of kids.

L = living arrangement = living at the casa, rent is free. w00t.

M = mom's name = Cheryl (Hi, mom!)

N = names of best friends = Angie (ine of my best buddies for almost 8 years now), Marlena (sweet girl, come back to Tucson!), and a handful of other people...

O = overnight hospital stays = I don't think I've ever had to do an overnight...

P = phobias = heights, spiders, sharks, shiny things in dark rooms (i don't know either...) and... another stock market crash.

Q = quote you like = "There is no one to tell you what to do. You must use your own intelligence & initiative. It's scary at first but once you get used to it -- look around, have fun -- do good."

R = relationship that lasted the longest = I've known Angie for almost 8 years... yeah. Otherwise I don't think I've known anyone longer than almost 4.

S = siblings = Steve (aka, ssoloway)

T = Texas - ever been = No. maybe driven through? is that enough?

U = unique trait = I think i'm full of good ideas, but i need to get them out there more than i do.

V = vegetable you love = brocolli... oh man, BROCOLLI! and spinach.

W = worst trait = i think i'm right a lot when i'm not.

X = x-rays you've had = for my stomach, teeth... i can't think of anything else...

Y = yummy food you make = if i personally know you, then you should know that i've been cooking like crazy as of late. i don't know what has come over me. a couple of examples are Roasted Leg of Lamb with Goat Cheese Potatoes and Sauce Porigueaux, Dulce de Leche (never again, too much sugar), and lamb chops with a kalamata/lemon butter sauce with basil. So good. Hire me for parties.

Z = Zodiac sign = Libra/Sometimes a Scorpio. (Libra's are indecisive like that.)

Bad Moon Rising

Steve's (ssoloway's) party last night was oodles of fun, Marlena & I got to jam out on the guitar and drums and all that... it was really loads of fun. We hadn't jammed in like 2 years, so it was much needed. Oh, and we had an audience of 1. I think his name was Doug?

I've been knitting a lot, taking advantage of a 4 day weekend... I've completed 3 things I think? Some I can't talk about, but you can see pix once Xmas has come and gone... Started a scarf that I'm gonna get paid for, then I have to start 2 more in interesting patt.s to keep myself sane for Xmas gifts.

Woe is me. So much knitting. So much school work still. Finals are circling.

Send your fuzzy get-well vibes, a friend is in bad shape... I send mine.

Hope you all had a wonderful weekend, doing what you love, ignoring what disturbs you, what makes you angry or crass. Save it for Xmas. E>E>E>